Saturday, November 13, 2010

rushing through life a bit

I know I haven't posted in such a long time, so here it goes. Lately, everything in my life has been going perfect. I've been able to juggle both work and school, and still not get sick. Everything with my family has been great and things with the boyfriend couldn't be better. Even though things are going so good, I can't help the feeling but to want to more. I'm feeling great and I have been out of the hospital for I think 6 months now. It makes me so happy. Feeling like this makes me want it not to end. This makes me want more while I'm still feeling good because I know the second my health goes down hill my life freezes. When I feel this great I want to do everything and go everywhere.; which is the bad part. I feel good so I go out and have fun. I think I can handle it but eventually I know I will start spiraling down. It's so hard to to have to keep yourself from having fun and living life so that way you can live more life (I hope that just made sense.) I just want to all now; so that way time doesn't run out before I achieve it.